Fine Art nominee

I created this self portrait to heal and rid myself off pain.
A person very close to me has hurt me severely and I have noticed how it drives me into a depression. So, I made the decision to create this picture.

I puted my hands on my ears to shut up the noise that shouts at me, also I have placed myself in embryo position to protect my body. I have deliberately kept the image so dark, so I wanted to distract the viewer from myself and give him the freedom to interpret. But I also wanted to portray the fear that has laid over me like a shadow. When I create pictures, it is always very important to me that I´m in the right mood, because only then you get authentic and honest pictures.

With this picture, I have reached my goal, I have managed to take all my fear and put it in the picture. Now the fear is no longer a part of me, it´s a part of this picture.

Hey, my name is Benjamin, but I prefer Ben.
I’m a portrait & people photographer from Bielefeld, Germany.

Why Photography:
I wanted a new toy to play with, which I couldn’t understand directly, so at Christmas in 2014 I decided to buy a camera. And the journey began. Since I got this camera I knew I wanted to photograph people, but my introversion and shyness made it impossible. But with every little step I noticed more and more that I must photograph people and not landscapes, so I spent time with other people and I found the most interesting thing in our world: humans.