Photomanipulation 3rd place winner

Every day I struggle with my own mind and my thoughts. I constantly analyse myself: cut myself into pieces and then put them together. This kind of self-analysis stems not so much from my own decision as from my obsessive-compulsive disorder and anxiety. I have never been so close physically and mentally to myself like in the period of last year’s lockdown due the corona and this is mentally much more exhausting than ever before.
In my series I worked with the polaroid technique. For the maximalism of my compulsion - which in many cases, manifested in an infinite retouching in relation to digital images - the finality and contingency of the polaroid means reassurance, I can not modify the image itself, but I can process it manually in any way afterwards.

I have always been artistic in a non-artistic family. I graduated as an economist, but honestly, that world has always been far away from me. I was constantly looking for my way, developing my creative self, writing, taking photos, making crafts. About eight years ago, I started making bags in a self-taught way, and then a couple of years ago it proved to be little for me, so I applied to a fashion design school. Here I realised how much I love to deal with the basis of everything, the material itself, and to try different material manipulation techniques. After graduation I had started Textile MA at Budapest Metropolitan University, where from I graduated last summer. I feel like I have finally found my place. I love combine photography and manipulation techniques. My main source of inspiration is myself, my feelings, my experiences, my thoughts about the world and myself.