Though a set of extraordinary circumstances certainly helped catalyse the mindstate that led me to conjure these images, I never aimed to confine within them anything extraordinary. Looking from the outside inwards, I wanted to capture the very exoskeletal portrayal of our phenomenologies, littered with the religiosities of the everyday. After navigating through the perverse intoxication of despair, I found myself reflecting upon the calm that eventually washed over me and I realised that I had found acceptance.
To me the sea is a silent monolith unaltered by the lives lived alongside it, thus mirroring the particularities of my own condition. The water aims to reflect a subject in the midst of her purgatory period - too far gone for the taut dialectics of the times, but not yet certain of what must come to replace them. Notably abstaining from colour here, I focus on movement (particularly through a denser medium like water) to reflect my experience with plunging into the depths of mental dismemberment. Finally, incorporating femme symbolism was only a natural extension of my compulsion for control over my emotional state, at a time when I felt more than ever like a pawn in a cruel patriarchal game.
