In my photographic journey, I've sought to encapsulate the profound intensity of experiencing the world around me. A pivotal aspect of this exploration is the sensation of derealisation—akin to the haziness of being inebriated, where eyes resist opening and surroundings morph into an ethereal dance. This disconnection, at times comforting in its confined bubble, can also feel like a prison. I wanted to visually narrate these contrasting emotions—both the serene and the paralysing.
This project was created using a 4x5 large format camera (La Chambre) with expired color positive and negative film, as well as one digital image. All photographs retain their natural effects and were intentionally left unedited to preserve the authenticity of the process. Continuous light, flash, and colored gels were used to create, soft, dreamlike tones, while natural materials like water and scattered flowers introduced texture and fluidity to the imagery.
The ghostly forms and hazy visuals mirror the experience of disappearing—of feeling unmoored and disconnected from the world.
The culmination of this visual exploration finds expression in a holographic and biokinetic installation—that further immerses viewers in the emotional tapestry that inspired this project.
